first kiss, account.

nothing in the world could stop it.
   the hot tears you made me cry, i was so

overwhelmed.

but nothing could have stopped it.

      face my own fears.
i wanted it.
i wanted you,

in the brief seconds that followed,
      your tongue on mine, those lips pressing into mine.

lust, only lust, and later i cried
              a river of a million tears, you ruined me,
but i did not reject.
my worst fear.

complication of the heart.
never easy, love is  never  easy,
          though it was not love i felt for you, my mind was numb for the time.

i will never forgive,
              but the seconds stay sweet in my mind, though the hours were

crowded with bitterness.